After watching the video, you may ask yourself; Why would he do it if it was such a huge deal. I ask myself the same question. People do things in the heat of the moment and regret them later all the time. Sometime it’s motivated by anger, joy, and lust. The latter was the motivation in this particular story. Since Eric Nlemchi has passed away, Ill never get to ask him why and get a full explain or thought process behind all of his violence and lies. I was too angry and vengeful to ask him myself, although he continue to hit me up on various other site he saw me on after the incident. My perfect crime free record was tarnish due to this dude. I have to be an adult an take responsibility For my retaliation but i feel it was justified due to the circumstance. I never wish death on anyone so I wasn’t wishing that he would die but i can say that this wasn’t bad news when I heard about him dying in the bike accident on the news. There was a moment of shock, then there was a moment where the inner child in me said “Hell Yea, That what you get”, then a moment of guilt when the adult in me say ” “That not a good thought to think”. During the time that I googled the accident, I found a news post where his sister had commented and I felt bad for them because regardless of the ugly side that I saw in him, he still was someone’s brother,son,nephew. etc and this was their lost. So my condolences to them
Posted in dating, deaths, diamond stylz, Sex, Transgender, Uncategorized
Tagged 59, bike accident, Crash, death, Diamond Stylz, down low men, Eric Nlemchi, Houston, texas, transgender women of color
I had some major pronouns usage fails direct toward the trans woman in the matter at hand…and I apologize for that because that may seem hypocritical and inconsiderate….that was not my intention…
A federal court judge on Tuesday ordered Massachusetts officials to provide sex-reassignment surgery for a transsexual prison inmate, Michelle Kosilek, after determining that it was the only adequate treatment for the inmate’s mental illness.
September 14, 2012
Tagged court, DSM-V, eighth amendment, gender reassignment surgery, judge, judge ruled for sex change state Massachusetts prison inmate Michelle Kosilek transgender gender reassignment surgery tax payer, Massachusetts, medical, medical needs, mental disorder, Michelle Kosilek, prison inmate, ruled, ruling, sex change, state, tax payer, transgender, treatment
I( maybe some of you too) am in a some strange situation that only me and God understands…and really thats all who need to understand it. I try to live my life right, and continue to pray for guidance on the right things to do that Im not too sure about , work on my own salvation. If God let the “saints” have their way in my life….I would be dead, sick, poor,homeless, and a failure. Although the tongues of the so called saint spoke those bad things on me, I have not succumb to not even one of those states of being. I am really blessed. I have some loving friends and family (sometime they get on my damn nerves but..lol), stable home and job, good health, romantic and platonic love. I do have some wants but my needs are all fulfilled. It has been like that for a while. I have prayed through conviction(which is not a trait of a reprobated mind) and received guidance and blessings in return. Looking back, my anger toward these fake saints blinded me. I couldn’t even see how blessed I was. Im more mature now and tired of the battle in justification and explanation to people who don’t really matter in my salvation. I can talk and explain my strange, abnormal, unorthodox, weird, unusual situation until I’m blue in the face and people still wont understand. So i refuse to do all that anymore. My life has purpose. Im here and on this path for a reason. I know and understand that reason. When I need guidance know where to get it from. I will continue to singing my song of joy in strange land to strange people.
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Tagged Christ, Christianity, Diamond Stylz, god, LGBT, Music, Psalm, psalm 137:4, Religion and Spirituality, salvation. faith, transgender
So 2011 has been a great year for me. The year started with off with the blessing of of new apartment. I didnt want to move at first but i did reluctantly. The location was better in the new apartment but it was lil more expensive so I was worried about my finances. I prayed about it and stepped out on faith. Now love the new place. In the middle of the year I traveled and attended the 2011 BET Awards for the first time thanks to my friend J. It was fun experience. i feel like celebrity just being so close to so many real celebrities. I ate at Mr Chow’s and some susi place with my friend and we had great food and great conversation as we always do. It was just a wonderful time in Los Angeles. So much so that i know if ever move from Houston it will be there. In the middle of year i also started a new job. It great. I like the people and it gives me the free time to work on my dreams. Then as the ear came to the end, I found a new love. Well not really new a old live just newly becoming official. I met his family. Although there were some awkward moments in that family meeting, it all went well. So Im someone girlfriend again. That is an unexpected state to be in. I didn’t expect to be here at the begin of 2011 but I am officially in love. Scared-as-hell-in-love but in love nevertheless. I hope that 2012 bring more blessing and no pit falls that my resilience cant handle. Im looking forward to a new year of even more greatness.
December 25, 2011
Tagged angry birds, Christmas, christmas presents, comedy, Diamond Stylz, Family, Gifts, holiday, Holidays, Houston, los angeles, love, New Year, relationship, transgender
Victory is Ours especially the Fellas: James Lee Scott and his lawyer
So A Texas Judge rules to validate a transgender man’s marriage to a woman. The case is the first win of its kind. This without a doubt a victory, but this victory has a bittersweet tase to it. As we all know , well should know, Nikki Araguz is in the process of long appeal after her marriage to her husband was voided by a Texas judge after the death of her firefighter husband. Also in 1999, Christie Littleton’s marriage was deemed null and void as well after se attempted to go against a doctor for malpractice which resulted in her husband’s death. So that is two transgender women denied. Yet here we are another marriage case but with a transgender man, and his marriage is deemd valid and therefore respected. Is this just a coincidence? I dont think so. This that male privilege tat we all have discuss subtle. You hear its while watching FTMs talk about how they feel more empowered to speak and and be heard in the mist to other moreso that when the were living a sthere prior selves. That same male privilege that allows Ftms to get there top surgery to remove breast paid for under insurance because gynecomastia is cover by insurance. It is not consider cosmetic because God formid a male have breasts. That just have to be a medical condition that needs to be fix. Yet top surgery for MTFs are consider cosmetic and are not covers by medical insurance. Now this blog is not to imply that MTFs dont have some form of privilege that come with transition because we as well. I just want to bring it to the attention of my reader to show how full of shit our justice and social system is. Male privilege, bio or not, and misogyny shows up in the most obscure forms and situations. Anywho Like I said this a victory and I will looking at it as a step in the right direction hopefully toward many more.
Posted in gay rights, Love, marriage, Politics, Transgender
Tagged dallas, James Lee Scott, judge Rules, Lori Chrisman Hockett, male privilege, Marriage, Rebecca Louise Robertson, texas, texas court, transgender, Valid
Transgender indivduals sometime are too busy trying to convince others of their gender so they put too much weight in how others perceive their gender and not how they perceive their gender. Of course, you have to consider how people perceive you on some level because in this world that perception can affect the quality of life. The problem come when you, as a trans individual, cares too much and it starts to triggers YOU effecting the quality of your own life not the others. Incidents like going into a downward spiral because someone used the wrong pronoun at the ice cream shop or getting an attitude with your spouse for the rest of your day cause someone clocked that you are a little wider in the hips than other men. In actuality, regular people just are their gender unapologetically flaws and all. Dont we claim to be just like regular people? Then start acting like it. I know some manly looking biological females who identify as women. When people mistake them for men. They dont make it a trigger for a depression episode. They say “No sweetie, Im a woman”…and move on with their life. On personal note, I use to get so insecure when someone would say “ooo you’re tall for a woman” because Im almost 5’11…. UNTIL…I saw a bio woman who was taller than me get the same statement at Burger King. She smile and said “Yea I am. Can I get no onions and extra mayo on that burger?” That one few seconds change my whole perspective of how I interacted with the world… YEA I AM …NOW MOVING ON. Certain things we have the power to change but some things we just dont. Why added more stress to your life about thing you cant change anyway. Remember the serenity prayer? Just be who you are in the moment now , as a work-in-progress like the rest of the regular people. Just BE who you said you are. Sop trying to convince people or yourself
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Tagged Beauty, beyonce, body image, Burger King, celebrity bodies, confidence, Diamond Stylz, eating disorders, gay, gender, Gender and Sexuality, gender identity, LGBT, Marilyn Monroe. Norma jean baker, passable, pronouns, psychology, self esteem, self-love, society, standard, trans, transgender, Transgendered